I’ve eaten so much shit this weekend and today I feel disgusting
4 topic bars and loads of millions and ice creams and pasta today
My face is getting podgy again and I haven’t had time off from the sproglet for weeks.
I need to have a week of energy drink and catching up on work. No buying junk food and only eating when I’m hungry not just cause I’m bored/stoned
Though the weed is all gone now anyway :’(
Everything in my life is so out of my control atm. I know feeling good in how I look will cheer me up so need to sort the hair.
Need new tattoo/piercing/body/face
….or I need to crawl into a hole and die.
Kids everyday is the worst torture.
I don’t get the stupid anchor tattoo that says “refuse to sink” because anchors aren’t meant to sink like holy shit no way? Having the phrase with the Titanic tattooed on yourself would make more sense because at least that was suppose to float
Is really devoid of narcotics :(
I lost all my weed on the move and Katie has been exhausted. I don’t know anyone in my new area so can’t source anything…..
I don’t want to start drinking again but I can see that happening. I’ve done really well and haven’t got drunk for a couple of weeks.
But with nothing to distract me I’m going to get back on the vodka train I just know it *sigh*
I love being alone with my thoughts, I just don’t like being sober alone with my thoughts.
Then all the positivity fades away and I’m just anxious and sad